Tuesday, November 07, 2006
#2
Amberly had her first official appointment with our midwife today and everything seems to be going well. You can go here (14 weeks) to see what is going on developmentally with our little 3 1/2 inch baby. We got to hear a heartbeat today...that is such a fascinating thing. There are no visible outward signs yet, so when you hear that rapid pulse its like new life is announcing itself loud and clear! To top off an exciting day, some new friends brought dinner over (knowing Amberly has been sick) and we shared a great meal before i went to class. Bryan and Emily just got married about a week ago, and here they were bringing us dinner...it was humbling and we remain grateful. I'm curious why i'm hesitant to receive gifts (and the simple gift of relationship itself) from people i do not know extremely well. We seem to have a tendency to stay at arms length with people for some reason. I know there are some good boundaries and protective instincts...but i also know that something in us resists sharing life with others. Every time we hang out with Adam & Dru we thoroughly enjoy it (and Morgan is especially excited), yet there is this lingering fear at times that we are burdening people. Do we all feel that to an extent? Maybe it's just that i suck at receiving...I mean, can i really enjoy Chad's gumbo and Meredith's hospitality if i can't simply be grateful? When McCrary offers me renewed friendship and i miss the point, or Fatty initiates a great conversation only for it to drop on my end...are there roots here in failure to "lean?" The list goes on and moves into the walls of my house as i miss the weight of my brother's words, Amber's thoughtful question, or Morgan's "hold you Dada?" I guess it all goes back to being present...truly present...to the Father and to others. Here we learn to listen and receive well, just as we surely learn how to give and to speak. Thanks to all of you who will not let us live alone...but love Christ enough to bring new wine, even where the (my) wineskins haven't been changed in a while.
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yeah...so stop bringing us Dr. Pepper! Just kidding, Dru likes it! But you don't have to every time...we're waiting for that day that you just say thanks and leave it at that...no pressure though.
I don't recall giving you clearance to comment on this blog...I can't believe i lost the bet.
While I may produce a lot of writing, your quality is far exceeding... ...It is really exciting to hear the heart beat, I had heard mine many times but I was captivated the first time I heard El Captain's...
yeah...there's nothing quite like it. How is the little Captain, speaking of heartbeats? I'm looking fwd to seeing him in a couple of weeks.
First off, I can't believe I haven't read your blog in so long. I missed the timing for NM flag posting. Then I see some shout-outs... I'm a bummer.
Today I worshipped all by myself!
Mutual friendship means giving and taking. Some are better at one than the other. "I gave her my heart, she gave me a pen." - Say Anything
You're just trying to start a good conversation I can't have with you, aren't you?
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